A message

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I was just a child then. Just 9 years old.
How did you do that to me?
I trusted you. My parents trusted you.
How were you able to do that to your goddaughter?

Everyday, you sit in the terrace of your house. Thats your place.
Every other day, You call me. You ask me to remove those hair under your lip. I always do that, didnt i?
I was very obedient to you.

One afternoon while im picking those small hairs on your chin, You told me to get you a water inside your house. I was hesitant at first because it was so dark there. Nobody’s home. But you told me not to be afraid. I obeyed you, didnt i?

In the dark you hold my little body.
That scared me to death and all i were able to say was “mama” Hoping she would hear me so she can stop you.
Finally you let me go. You drink the water i brought you. And then we went outside. Thank God you did not do anything to me!

Outside.
Nobody sees us.
Maybe that’s the reason why you held me there. Because no one is there. And ifever someone comes along, he wont suspect that youre doing something bad because were on the outside.

I never thought that would happen.
I never thought that the person i respected all my life except for my parents will slid his dark hands inside my underwear.

You asked me if it feels good.

Feels good??

NO!
NO!
If you only knew how it felt so bad!

IT FELT SO BAD. LIKE DEATH.
LIKE HELL.
I FELT MY WORLD WAS SHAKING, BUT IM NOT MOVING.
I CANT MOVE.
I CANT CRY.
I CANT TELL YOU TO STOP.
I CANT EVEN SAY A WORD.

WHY?
WHY ME?

After that day, or should i say “days”.
You acted like nothing happened. Youre still friends with my mom.
Yeah. Youre right.
You were right when you said I shouldnt tell anyone.
That was the best advise ive ever got from you.

And so I never did.
Even my mom, she never knew.
And she will never know.
I cant let her know.
I dont know if i could bear to live my life knowing that people knew i was molested.

That would degrade me.

That would feel worse than being handicapped.

That would eliminate every respect i have for myself.

Now my world was shattered.
It was shattered since that very day.
And God knows i tried so hard to make it whole again, but i cant.

Because of you i cannot trust the people around me anymore.

Do you know how much damaged you’ve caused my life?

I cant forget it.
And as long as i remember it,
As long as im aching,
As long as it tears me apart,
I CANT FORGIVE YOU.

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Oh my brows!

Girls. Girls. Girls.

Are you having a hard time shaping your brows and making it perfect? Well, that’s normal! Every girl experiences that everyday. And to help you out with that, i made a compilation of some simple yet helpful tips on how you can do your brows perfectly!

FIRST STEP.
KNOW YOUR BROW SHAPE.
The picture below shows the different shapes of eyebrows. Check out what’s yours!

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How would you know if a certain brow shape will look good at you?
The next picture will show you what brow shape fits your face.

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SECOND STEP

BEFORE SHAPING YOUR EYEBROWS, KNOW EVERY ANGLE LIKE WHAT THE PICTURE BELOW SHOWS YOU.
(The shaping requires plucking and shaving of your brows. You can do it using a tweezer or a blade.)

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LASTLY,

Do the steps in the picture below.

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Now girls, you can make your brows perfect with those simple tips i got from the internet. Have a great eyebrow day to you!

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Mother’s love

Mommy! Im hungry!”
“Mommy im hurt.”
“Mommy im scared.”
“Mommy i made it!”
“Mommy im so happy!”

Mommy n. the first person in the world who loves and will love you forever.

From the very first time you opened your tiny baby eyes until now that you’re reading this blog, there’s always one person who loves you more than she loves herself and that is your mother.
She’s always there to appreciate you and support you no matter what.
No one in this world cares for you more than she does.

Remember when youre young and still cant speak? She’s always telling you to say mommy! eventhough she knows that you couldnt. Everyday she does that. “Say mommy baby. Say mommy.” She repeats that everyday. Until one day, you were able to mumble that word and she jumped for joy! She was so happy because for the first time, her angel got to call her mommy. Can you imagine how happy she was then?

Remember when you first attend your school? I can tell she’s more excited than you. She’s the one who prepared all your things; your uniform, bag, pencil, paper, etc. You were so afraid but she cheered you up saying “you can do it baby!” She even accompanied you to school and waited for you until dismissal. Can you imagine how happy she was then?

Remember the first time you got your very first achievement? She’s happier than you! She took a photo of you and showed it to her friends and relatives. Can you imagine how proud of you she was then?

Remember your first heartache? When all you see was darkness and you felt like your world just fall apart? Her world fell apart more than yours. She was hurt more than you were. Did you ever hear her cry those nights?

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Remember your first failure? You thought that it was all over. You cannot do it anymore. But she held your head up and told you, “you can do it!” You realise that she was right and you picked up yourself again. You start all over again and now youre there.

And you thanked your mom for believing in you and giving you such courage. You became successful.

All that i am, or hope to be, i owe to my angel mother” – Abraham Lincoln

And now, its your turn to give back to her.
Love her. Appreciate her. Care for her.
Make her happy for the remaining time of her life.

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Colorful delights!

Are you a foodie? A burger junkie? And has an eye for colors? Well, this is the perfect place for you!
Mr. Swabergers!

As a foodie, i always make sure i am up to date when it comes to the new restaurants built in our place. And as i seek for a new “flavor of the month” , i encountered this newly franchised Mr. Swabergers in our place near the highway. They offer different styles of burger ranges from php35- php110. They also offer a create your own type of burger that you will surely enjoy! Aside from that, you could also have a colorful food experience with their colored buns such as red, black, yellow, green and white. (additional php5.00 in every order.)

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Try it once and you’ll surely ask for more!

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Life

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How to live your life to the fullest?
Do everything you’ve never done before.
Feel every feeling you haven’t felt before.
And know everything you’ve never known before.
As simple as 1,2,3. As easy as a,b,c.

Here are some tips on how you can start YOLO-ing (as what the kids nowadays call it).

You can start living your life to the fullest just by eating the foods you haven’t tasted yet. Example, if youre a meat lover, try eating veggies for a change. Or if youre a vegetarian, try eating meat. Do not deprivate yourself from the things that could bring you pleasure. Because that’s the essence of life. Enjoy, have fun, and be pleased.
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If youre a student who’s always running for honors, why dont you try not to do your assignment even for one subject? In that way you would know how it feels like to be in a hot seat wherein the teacher asks you how in the world you weren’t able to do your homework. Being on top always is too boring. You must experience everything. As in everything before you can say that you just had a life.

If youre a commuter, buy your own car to experience the pleasure and luxury of having one.

If you have a car, commute atleast once every other day.

Afraid of heights? Ride a ferris wheel.

Afraid of animals? Have a pet.

Always budgetting? Always saving? Buy things you want; make-up, shoes, dresses, gadgets, etc. Money is just there. You can earn it and therefore you have to spend it. Just imagine how unfair you could be to yourself if you work eight hours per day, six times in a week and you dont pamper and spoil yourself. Rude isnt it?

We only live once, so we better live it to the fullest. Bring it to the highest and enjoy it until the last seconds. So once you reached the last minutes of your life, you wont have any regrets. You can proudly say to yourself that “I lived my life the way i want, and i just had a life!”

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